Tuesday, September 23, 2008


Do you ever find yourself in a major funk???? I'm talking about what I like to refer to as 'burn-out funk'. This results when one has too many irons in the fire or too many projects going at once & yet, feeling as though none of them are getting done. And then as a result, lack of motivation sets in & then its difficult getting started again.

I've just described myself to a tee!!!! I'm the world's largest proponent of having so many projects going on at the same time & finding there's never enough time to complete them all. My biggest problem is I have too many hobbies. Unlike most folks who can be completely content with just one hobby, I find the busier I am the more content I tend to be. I don't like being idle and yet when faced with everything I'd like to accomplish versus what I am actually able to accomplish, I almost drive myself completely nuts. You see, I'm a perfectionist and I strive to do many things. My life is full of hobbies & projects which I all equally love! I haven't managed to find that perfect balance (if there is such a thing) between all my projects so I at least feel like I'm getting somewhere.

I'm convinced that this must be some form of mental illness. First of all, if you love cross-stitching as much as I do, then it can safely be assumed that you have to be a little bit on the insane side. We start projects that progress nicely and then all of a sudden we hit a brick wall. No...I'm not talking about the project becomes too difficult to finish. Rather we get distracted. We visit our LNS, Michaels or Hobby Lobby and we see new stash that we convince ourselves that we just have to have. We are constantly finding new patterns to stitch. So what do we do...instead of finishing the current project we're working on, we start the new project that we lie to ourselves once more that we will stitch 'this one' until we finish. The same is true of crocheters & knitters. (I'm in this group of people too!!!) We buy yarn like its going out of style. You let Michaels downsize one of their yarn brands, and we knitters & crocheters will think we've died & gone to heaven when we can purchase skeins of yarn for $1/skein!!!!

I'd like to think I'm no different than the next person when it comes to my hobbies, but I'll let you be the judge. Besides cross-stitching & crocheting, you may have read in earlier posts or on my other blog that I am also writing a book. This is yet another favorite past-time that I've dabbled in since I was about 9 or 10 yrs old. Last August I decided I'd try my hand at writing my 1st fiction novel....a romance/suspense novel. I'm down to my last 5 chapters and all of a sudden I just feel like I have no clue what to write. The entire book has flowed from start to finish and it isn't like I don't know what I'm going to write in those last 5 chapters. But the urge to write has left me. I'm anxious to get the book finished by the end of the year so I can begin pitching it to agents & publishers early in 2009. And thus far, the entire book has been written in spurts of writing urges that have hit me here & there for the past year. I don't think its writer's block as much as it is the simple fact that up until now I've been relaxed about the whole thing. There's been no deadlines to meet, and now that I've set a goal for myself to try and be done with it by the end of the year, I've just locked up. I keep telling myself that time is running out.
Another hobby that I have is my internet radio station called Jukebox Junction Radio. Now of all the hobbies I partake in, this keeps me the least busy. Outside of keeping the station updated with all the latest hits & rotating out my playlist from the thousands of songs I have in my music library, it basically just runs itself. Recently I spent an entire afternoon uploading my Christmas library of songs to prepare for the upcoming holiday season. It was quite time consuming and I thought I would NEVER get done, but am glad now that I took the time to get it taken care of. Now when the time comes to begin playing all that Christmas music, I'll be one step ahead of the game.

And then on top of that, I had mentioned in an earlier post that I'm currently working on my daughter's Christmas stocking as well as 2 crocheted afghans and a set of crocheted placemats for my stepmom. Everything is coming along, but I'm feeling the pressure & keep telling myself that I'll never be done in time for the holidays! I honestly don't know why I work so hard to put so much pressure on myself!!! I've always been this way. I'm an overachiever in the worst way!!! Hobbies are supposed to be enjoyable...otherwise, why in the world would we ever engage in them??? I have to admit I'm just a little bit stressed!!!!

I need a schedule & I need one bad!!! I tend to work well when my life is all planned out. Hey, don't laugh!!! Who says kids are the only ones who need structure in their lives????? One thing is for certain, no one can ever accuse me when I'm gone one day of not having lived life to the fullest!!! Now whether I will have accomplished half of what I've set out to do remains to be seen....

Please excuse me while I go do a little stitching. Or wait, did I mean to say crocheting? No, that's not it, I meant that I have a chapter waiting to be written. No, scratch that...I've got some more new music to upload to my radio station. Oh, heck, I think I'll just go workout instead!!!

Until next time....Happy Stitching! :)


Carolyn said...

Yes, we all understand the tired of the old, go with the new syndrome and adding to stash! Give yourself a break and remove the deadlines - if you get it done or don't, so be it. Or just pick ONE item of them all that you really do want to get done and try to make that one goal. Try to enjoy what you do with your hobbies - they don't own you (though sometimes it feels that way!!).
And I love your poster on planning. I love that particular website, and the rest of the posters! :)

Michele said...

(((((((((((dawn))))))))))))) I just hate being in a funk. Hope it gets better!

Susan said...

When I'm in a funk, I pick up a book to read. I'm actually in the middle of two with a third yet to be started.
I understand the moving along then hitting a brick wall. Luckily I've been in the "finish it" mode lately, though I have new projects that I'm dying to start! The only thing keeping me back from crocheting is the lack of funds for yarn.
Good luck in finding a schedule (rotation?) for all your hobbies.